Hey!Wanna really know Who's Darlene is?Oh,well here's my life story that i already posted in my friendster account long time ago.But i decided to put it here so you guys can read it.I want you to know that what i am now,my past had helped a whole lot to become ME today.Each & everyone of us has past that we had dealt,different experiences,different way of lifestyle,& different style of how our parents brought us up.And i am really thankful that GOD really loves me & takes care of me pretty much for giving me such a wonderful life now.He gave me such a loving husband & an adorable son,i couldn't ask for anything more,i have everything already.Hope you guys will enjoy reading about my life story that i now enjoyed reminiscing,instead of feeling bitter about it.
I finally made the decision to do this kind of thing.I was hesitant to make blogs before coz i'm thinking & a bit scared that readers might not like it.Well,hope that through my blogs,you guys will know me better & you'll probably shake your head for what you're about to know about my life story.........
I belong to a big family,i have 8 siblings,5 brothers & 3 sisters,i am 6th from the eldest,the youngest girl.We all born in mindanao southern part of philippines.My father used to be a manager in a logging company but he resigned i think when i was 4 yrs old,i couldn't really remember it very well.Anyway,my mother has several business like,importing shells,we have fishing boats,we have convenient store,we have live bands bar(my eldest bro & my 3rd sis was the singer),& we sell kilos of fishes.We belong in middle class as i thought.My mom was very busy then doing all those business without the help of my lazy father.My father was very good in PR(public relationship)he had lots of friends in politics,businessmen & some famous people in our place.But when it comes to his own family(his kids),he doesn't even know how to manage very well.I hate to say this but i hate my father so much eversince.He's not a type of father that every child will be proud of.I call him a dectator,very tight to us his children & one mistake whip right away.I grew up with bitterness & hatred.He doesn't even know how to appreciate things,he's always sees bad instead.No matter how i tried to make him please,still nothing good words will come out to his mouth,he'll just say"that's not good enough"or"you're a loser".Well eventhough my father is treated me like that,but i still have mom always fired me up,she's always there to cheer me up.I can still remember she always say"if you'll be in the top ten this year i'll buy you a dress,pair of shoes & hair ties".OMG!she's a good mother,she always inspires me.Thank GOD my mother is always there for me no matter how busy she is,she still have time for us her kids.Until i reached fourth grade,very early in the morning,my father woke up,he threw up blood maybe a bucketfull.We were wondering what's wrong with him then,so my mom took him to the doctor in cebu.They found out that he is having a serious illness,he is acute diabetic.From then on he always got sick so bad & there were times he couldn't get up & he gets wounds just suddenly appears & it'll take sometime to heal.From then on he's gettin' worse & worse.Deep inside me then was happiness,coz he couldn't hurt us anymore & use his belt buckle to whip us everytime we make mistakes.He's been sick for quite a while exactly 6 long years,& my mom took care of him & my mom's business went down real fast until it was totally gone coz she can't take care of it anymore & my sisters & our eldest brother flew to manila to find their own happiness as we say.So we,the younger ones just left with my mom & dad.Year 1993 when my mom sent me to my sister in manila coz she can't take care of us anymore she just want the lil' ones to be with her,i was in highschool then in 2nd year.My 3 younger brothers are still with my mom they were so little then.Ireally feel bad everytime i reminisce all these things coz i feel so sorry for my mom coz she did a very hard work for taking care of my younger siblings & to my sick dad.I was 3rd year when my dad died it was year 1996 in january.I was still in manila then,& my classmates knows the death of my father & they asked me if i'm goin' home,i just answered them simply"NO,why should i?We have preliminary examinations comin',& if i'll go home,is he gonna go back to life again?I don't think so!I'd rather stay here & take the exams,he's not been a good father to me anyway".I said to myself "at last the monster died,he can't hurt me anymore or do something bad".No tears fell from my eyes coz he died,in fact i was happy deep inside.Few months after he died,my mom called my sister,she wants me back.My mom moved to her birthplace a year before he died.So i went home & finished my last year in highschool there,then i graduated finally.Later that night of my graduation day,my mom talked to me,she said she can't let me proceed to college coz she doesn't have source of income to pay the tuitions & other fees in school.I got so upset coz i really wanted to finish my studies til' college,but then i realized that i couldn't do anything about it,so i decided to find a job instead,i don't wanna get stucked & do nothing.I was so young at the age of 17,but full of energy & life,willing to take the risk & face the challenge the real life of the world.My mom used to call me "FIGHTER"coz she always sees me fighting,not letting anybody step my feet,always ready to win the battle.Anyway,i got my very first job at the age of 17,i cheated my age in my birth certificate,not authenticated though,it is just a local municipality issue LOL!.In my workplace they always teased me "BATA" which means i'm just a "BABY" got lost trying to find my way.They used to tell me"Hoy bata,gisugo raka ug suka sa imong nanay noh unya nasaag ka diri sa kompanya?"hahaha!that was so funny.I worked there for nearly 5 years as i thought.Then i resigned due to the company is not working good no more.I went back to manila to find a job there,but instead a job,i found a guy that awaken my innocent feeling,he's lil' older than me but i find him very interesting.He's tall,dark but not handsome,just a simple looking guy.I fell in love with him,that was the very first time i fall for a guy,i hate guys so much then except my brothers coz i'm thinking guys are all alike,mean & users.We were committed for four long years & quite happy together.I really thought that he's gonna be the man that i'm goin' to marry.But i was wrong,until my aunt here from utah(got married to an american guy long time ago)went home for a funeral of my grampa & asked me if i have a boyfriend,i said yes,but unfortunately my family doesn't like him.Then my aunt said "well,i'll find a better one for you" i just replied her"don't bother,i'll work it out,they will like him soon".I didn't really take it seriously what my aunt did say to me i thought she was just kiddin' me.Then she went home again to visit her family,& she have something for me,a letter from an american guy,never know who he was but i still responded his letter.And after all that,he finally decided to come over to see me,& he did liked me,but in my mind was very confused & troubled.He's a good guy & loves me & that makes me think real hard to do the right thing.I made a very big decision in my life,i chose the american guy which is my husband now.I love my boyfriend but things are not gonna work fine with us,it hurts me so much that i left him & i broke his heart so bad too,he told me that he won't find any woman anymore,i will be the last woman in his life.Well,i am wishing for his happiness now,hope he can still find a right one for him.It is just that we're not really meant for each other & we're not destined to be together forever.As my present life's goin' ,i am very happy,contented & grateful for what i have now,no bitterness no hatred living in my heart anymore,i couldn't ask for anything more,GOD is been so good to me,i can tell that HE is always there for me,inspite of all the hardships in life that ive'd been through,i'm still standing here now & proud to be a woman,a daughter, a sister,a wife & a mother.I thank all these to HIM,HE guides me in the right path,HE always there when i'm weak & helpless.I hope you guys learned something from my story.All i can say is,just let things go on,move on,leave the past behind,& face the present & the future ahead of you.
I finally made the decision to do this kind of thing.I was hesitant to make blogs before coz i'm thinking & a bit scared that readers might not like it.Well,hope that through my blogs,you guys will know me better & you'll probably shake your head for what you're about to know about my life story.........
I belong to a big family,i have 8 siblings,5 brothers & 3 sisters,i am 6th from the eldest,the youngest girl.We all born in mindanao southern part of philippines.My father used to be a manager in a logging company but he resigned i think when i was 4 yrs old,i couldn't really remember it very well.Anyway,my mother has several business like,importing shells,we have fishing boats,we have convenient store,we have live bands bar(my eldest bro & my 3rd sis was the singer),& we sell kilos of fishes.We belong in middle class as i thought.My mom was very busy then doing all those business without the help of my lazy father.My father was very good in PR(public relationship)he had lots of friends in politics,businessmen & some famous people in our place.But when it comes to his own family(his kids),he doesn't even know how to manage very well.I hate to say this but i hate my father so much eversince.He's not a type of father that every child will be proud of.I call him a dectator,very tight to us his children & one mistake whip right away.I grew up with bitterness & hatred.He doesn't even know how to appreciate things,he's always sees bad instead.No matter how i tried to make him please,still nothing good words will come out to his mouth,he'll just say"that's not good enough"or"you're a loser".Well eventhough my father is treated me like that,but i still have mom always fired me up,she's always there to cheer me up.I can still remember she always say"if you'll be in the top ten this year i'll buy you a dress,pair of shoes & hair ties".OMG!she's a good mother,she always inspires me.Thank GOD my mother is always there for me no matter how busy she is,she still have time for us her kids.Until i reached fourth grade,very early in the morning,my father woke up,he threw up blood maybe a bucketfull.We were wondering what's wrong with him then,so my mom took him to the doctor in cebu.They found out that he is having a serious illness,he is acute diabetic.From then on he always got sick so bad & there were times he couldn't get up & he gets wounds just suddenly appears & it'll take sometime to heal.From then on he's gettin' worse & worse.Deep inside me then was happiness,coz he couldn't hurt us anymore & use his belt buckle to whip us everytime we make mistakes.He's been sick for quite a while exactly 6 long years,& my mom took care of him & my mom's business went down real fast until it was totally gone coz she can't take care of it anymore & my sisters & our eldest brother flew to manila to find their own happiness as we say.So we,the younger ones just left with my mom & dad.Year 1993 when my mom sent me to my sister in manila coz she can't take care of us anymore she just want the lil' ones to be with her,i was in highschool then in 2nd year.My 3 younger brothers are still with my mom they were so little then.Ireally feel bad everytime i reminisce all these things coz i feel so sorry for my mom coz she did a very hard work for taking care of my younger siblings & to my sick dad.I was 3rd year when my dad died it was year 1996 in january.I was still in manila then,& my classmates knows the death of my father & they asked me if i'm goin' home,i just answered them simply"NO,why should i?We have preliminary examinations comin',& if i'll go home,is he gonna go back to life again?I don't think so!I'd rather stay here & take the exams,he's not been a good father to me anyway".I said to myself "at last the monster died,he can't hurt me anymore or do something bad".No tears fell from my eyes coz he died,in fact i was happy deep inside.Few months after he died,my mom called my sister,she wants me back.My mom moved to her birthplace a year before he died.So i went home & finished my last year in highschool there,then i graduated finally.Later that night of my graduation day,my mom talked to me,she said she can't let me proceed to college coz she doesn't have source of income to pay the tuitions & other fees in school.I got so upset coz i really wanted to finish my studies til' college,but then i realized that i couldn't do anything about it,so i decided to find a job instead,i don't wanna get stucked & do nothing.I was so young at the age of 17,but full of energy & life,willing to take the risk & face the challenge the real life of the world.My mom used to call me "FIGHTER"coz she always sees me fighting,not letting anybody step my feet,always ready to win the battle.Anyway,i got my very first job at the age of 17,i cheated my age in my birth certificate,not authenticated though,it is just a local municipality issue LOL!.In my workplace they always teased me "BATA" which means i'm just a "BABY" got lost trying to find my way.They used to tell me"Hoy bata,gisugo raka ug suka sa imong nanay noh unya nasaag ka diri sa kompanya?"hahaha!that was so funny.I worked there for nearly 5 years as i thought.Then i resigned due to the company is not working good no more.I went back to manila to find a job there,but instead a job,i found a guy that awaken my innocent feeling,he's lil' older than me but i find him very interesting.He's tall,dark but not handsome,just a simple looking guy.I fell in love with him,that was the very first time i fall for a guy,i hate guys so much then except my brothers coz i'm thinking guys are all alike,mean & users.We were committed for four long years & quite happy together.I really thought that he's gonna be the man that i'm goin' to marry.But i was wrong,until my aunt here from utah(got married to an american guy long time ago)went home for a funeral of my grampa & asked me if i have a boyfriend,i said yes,but unfortunately my family doesn't like him.Then my aunt said "well,i'll find a better one for you" i just replied her"don't bother,i'll work it out,they will like him soon".I didn't really take it seriously what my aunt did say to me i thought she was just kiddin' me.Then she went home again to visit her family,& she have something for me,a letter from an american guy,never know who he was but i still responded his letter.And after all that,he finally decided to come over to see me,& he did liked me,but in my mind was very confused & troubled.He's a good guy & loves me & that makes me think real hard to do the right thing.I made a very big decision in my life,i chose the american guy which is my husband now.I love my boyfriend but things are not gonna work fine with us,it hurts me so much that i left him & i broke his heart so bad too,he told me that he won't find any woman anymore,i will be the last woman in his life.Well,i am wishing for his happiness now,hope he can still find a right one for him.It is just that we're not really meant for each other & we're not destined to be together forever.As my present life's goin' ,i am very happy,contented & grateful for what i have now,no bitterness no hatred living in my heart anymore,i couldn't ask for anything more,GOD is been so good to me,i can tell that HE is always there for me,inspite of all the hardships in life that ive'd been through,i'm still standing here now & proud to be a woman,a daughter, a sister,a wife & a mother.I thank all these to HIM,HE guides me in the right path,HE always there when i'm weak & helpless.I hope you guys learned something from my story.All i can say is,just let things go on,move on,leave the past behind,& face the present & the future ahead of you.
"Remember no one can make you feel inferior without your consent." —Eleanor Roosevelt—
9 comments:
Hi Darlene,thanks for d message..Korek jud ka day oiii mas guapa jud akong mama,mao pod nay ingon sa ahong mga brkada.And I'm really proud of her,..maaju nlang gani kay niliwat kog gamay..ahehhe..pero laju ra jud ko sa kumajingking..ahehe
Wowww dai i really read ur story from top to bottom.You're really a fighter dai, but sorry to hear about your father. Pareha ta dai,wana pod koy papa,but mine is a very good father to us.THanks GOD.
No wonder dai that you're a nice person because your Mama has raised you well.And good that you followed your heart.
It's really important to follow what we truly feel pra no regrets in the end.
Have a ncie day guapa and God bless you always and your family.
basa jud kos day haskangb taasa mora man sab ug ako kung mopost!! parehas ta my dad is a bit lazy too but lucky for u your mom who loves u and did her best my mom did too but she didn't last long. Sometimes i do wish nga naa pa akong mama so I can repay all her hard work! have a good day dae and thanx 4 sharing:)
nice story...actually i have read it already in ur friendster...pero gi basa gihapon nako ug usab kay nahan ayo ko imo story ba...hmmm bisan taaas kaau hehehe...thanx for sharing dae.
pariha gyud ta no..akong amahan sad purya gaba paskang pagka tapulana...then kulatado pa gyud to akong mama bisan maoy na nginabuhi unya buntis pa gyud....karon maka kita namo ang among amahan kay ma uwaw siya mo duol sa amoa tungod cguro s aiyang gibuhat sa akong mama sauna.
Hello sweet & Fighter Girl.. Woww grabeh i just read ur story maski astang taasa.pro nabasa nko tanan! Grabeg kaagi dah!
Wala ra na katunga sa ako-a! Hasta ko wala na sab ko papa oy.. pero hino-a buhi pa xa nag bulag cla sa akong mama ky nangabit man to xa ug jaPaYuki daw kuno. buntis akong mama nko gibiyaan nami. wala jud tawon ga suporta akong amahan namo hangtod ngdako mi kron. Police unta xa dah. sa Manila Pasay no-a xa na assign!! Pero dah wala man ko nag dumot sa akong amahan hangtod kron. ky still Amahan gihapon nko xa lahi-lahi jud atong bati-on noh ikaw grave jud imong pagdumot pro ako wala baya.usahay maka ana rako magmahay ra jud akong AmaHan sa iyang GiHimo.. ! intawon ngdako jud ko nga walay amahan .. i was 16 years old to start for being a indepnedent person until now!!
Darl thank's for sharing it to us! anyway just add me in ur friendster ok.. i try to add u pero wala ko kbalo sa imong Yahoo Add. Here's Mine Stedaf_talpas@yahoo.com
thank's Darl.
cge balik lng unya ko. asta na ni taasa akong na type heheh! Take care dra and God bless
kisses sa imong lil son. liwat jud xa sa iyang daddy.
hey girl...i remember u posted this sa friendster nga...u are one lucky girl to have them both and they are lucky too to have you!!! wish u all the best and luck in life...
hi darlene. your story is very inspiring. somehow when i was younger i had the same feeling of bitterness and hatred too, but i strived to find the good and love for theyre still our family, d ko gusto magmahay sa kaulahian. youre really brave, after all those struggles you have had, youre a mother and wife now, and sure will be like your very encouraging mother. well written but the story touched me deep. good luck in your new life, you made the right choice; God is great for giving you a very loving husband and dad to your children. God bless your heart.
Forget and Forgive it's the hardest thing to do. But I know you're happy with your life now and you're so blessed to have them both. I said it to hubby many times that becoming a mommy is definitely one thing that I am happy about. I am glad you pass through those hard times and stand on your own now. You're a fighter indeed! TFS Darlene.
Wow dae Darl, what a life story you have, di sab ko proud sa ako papa, mas mga responsible pa mi nga mga anak niya... mas maayo pa sya sa ubang tao, sa amo dili. Paanak lang ug daghan iyang nabal-an, iresponsably kaayo nga tatay. Fighter gyud diay ka dae, tough girl, gutsy sab kaayo.
karon wa koy maayo buot sa akong amahan, dugay na ko wa nagapakig-estorya niya, kwarta lang man sab iyang permi ginahandom.
Great job sab sa imong mama, she raised you well.
Your love story has a great ending gyud, karon happily married na gyud ug duna nay poy liwat, whatta wonderful blessing aftera all those hardships.
Thanks for sharing... Goodnight.
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