Sunday, January 4, 2009

Message From My Daughter

When my daughter finally ended her sufferings i was rushed into the emergency room and been there for two hours unconscious. I woke up from being unconscious with the voice of my mother encouraging me not to give up because i still have my dear son and loving husband who needs me. It was not the end of the world but seems like it was when i saw my daughter lifeless at her incubator with tube on her mouth and all the things that are being put for her to survive. She was one tough girl like her mom and she was just not meant to stay here in the world, she is happy where she is at now and i know that. Her not so long of staying here in the world built sweet memories to me and it will be in my heart until the last breath i have.

I took care of her and sent her to funeral homes, then i suddenly heard this very touching song of Martina McBride that made me cry even more. I felt so weak and fell down on the floor. But as i keep listening to this song, it feels like my daughter sent her message through this song for me to understand and let me know that she is proud of me because her mom is one tough mother and can overcome every trials and hardships that comes to her way. Please take some time to listen to this song, this is my favorite song. Thank you!

10 comments:

Unknown said...

That is a great song of MM. I do love her songs and there is one that I can't get enough of. This is one of her best.

Ooh, I can't imagine the scenario when you lost someone you love. It must be so hard but I've said it before and I will say it again that you are one brave mother. Your tough and you are a fighter. I salute you!

There are reasons of all the heartache and gradually we will understand why and how it happens. Just keep your faith in the "L".

Great song, very encouraging!

Sweetiepie said...

I love listening this song, pero kahilak man pod ta ani Dai oi.

Merydith said...

Darl I am glad that you are back and having fun with your friends. Your daughter is watching you and happy that you have slowly moved on. I love this song so much. It is very meaningful.

Anonymous said...

It was nice meeting you this holiday and seeing you smile with friends and hopefully getting some steps taken through what must be the most horrible grief.

After losing a close friend once someone told me something that I still remember- "Move on doesn't mean forgetting."

Its good to see you moving on, but living your life will never mean you loved your daughter less or that you've forgotten her. You have your son to bring up, another child that needs a full mommy.

Blessings and greetings from me and Annie.

Mary said...

So sad to hear your news. My heart grieves with you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Ritchelle said...

Nindot ug message bitaw oy....

The Frugal Angel-Guided Psychic said...

What a sad thing for you to have to go through. I will keep you in my heart and in my prayers. You are blessed and you will learn that more and more each day. Being touched by the hand of God comes in all forms.

Love Always,
Kara

""rarejonRez"" said...

oh.. i surely love this song! i have this in my music library.. hehe... country music fanatic, eh? hehe..

maayo kay balik na blogging darl. holidays are over, and oh... moving on is a nice step to go on with life.. :) i am sure there will be a lot of beautiful gifts, times, and people in the future and i am sure u will have a good time celebrating life even without baby deanne's physical presence.

take care darl and God bless you! :)

Twerlyn said...

Ur little girl loves you so much Darl, she let you hear this song at the time you needed to hold and be strong.

Ai Dihayco said...

Darl, i cant help but get emotional when i read this post of yours esp when i was listenign to the song. I could relate well with your feelings coz im also a mom. Take care and keep on holding on with faith.

our prayers goes out to your daughter who's now in heaven with the Lord.