I was debating myself between whether i post this video or better not. I have been depressed lately no matter how i tried to divert my attention from other things so to keep me busy and occupied. Every time hubby is away (at work), i am always being left alone. I cannot talk to my young son, for he cannot understand what i am feeling right now. Still, the deep wound in my heart is so fresh and it hurts so bad. Every time i view all the photos of my daughter i cannot help but to cry and wishing she is here with us now. I can't just put in my mind that she is happy now where she's at. Yes i agree that but i can't seem to overcome this feeling inside me, my emotions is eating me and i feel like i am drowning, i am trying to let go and get over this but my mind is too dull to understand all that.
This video i have here was taken two days before she passed away. She got bad already, she was mottling, her skin gotten dark, had some red spots and her breathing was not good anymore. In short she was in a bad shape on this video and i took this because i felt deep inside me that she is not going to survive the battle, but was still hoping she would but she didn't. I am thankful i had this video as my remembrance, though she is not with us no more but i still have this video that always reminds me how beautiful my daughter is and of course her memory will be in my heart forever.
This video i have here was taken two days before she passed away. She got bad already, she was mottling, her skin gotten dark, had some red spots and her breathing was not good anymore. In short she was in a bad shape on this video and i took this because i felt deep inside me that she is not going to survive the battle, but was still hoping she would but she didn't. I am thankful i had this video as my remembrance, though she is not with us no more but i still have this video that always reminds me how beautiful my daughter is and of course her memory will be in my heart forever.